So Long Astoria! Eyes Like The Ocean, Yet She Won't Cry For Me

Good Evening Ladies and Gents!!
So I'm still alive (though these past few days, barely) and I'm willing to write a blog entry. I suck at attempting to remember these, so I now have a new way of doing it: Alarms! I'll set my alarm, and I will blog! Simple right? Question is, will I be able to remember to do it =P.

So dialysis has been rough recently. Don't know why though...Could it be me gaining weight finally? Maybe my body can't handle the 2.5 kilos that it has to take off (even though it could handle 3.0-3.5 kilos pretty well,) maybe I just over think stuff and I actually need to sleep more? So many thoughts it drives me fucking crazy.

I over think things. It's a horrible issue I have that aggravates the piss out of me. Why I over analyze things, over think things, even over react to the littlest things is beyond me. I always try to come up with a reason (competitive issues cause of family, wanting to be perfect because I found something I'm great at, etc etc.) One day I will figure out the answer to those questions.

Mentality is a very fickle thing. If one little thing goes wrong, it'll snowball into an avalanche of insanity that drives a person to the edge of absolute damage and destruction. And yet, if one small thing goes right, a person will keep that thought for so long, it'll end up like a cherished memory. Last week, I won free soda from Coke. That little moment made me very happy because hey, free Coke is awesome. I even got to a coupon to use for the girlfriend. That made me fucking ecstatic! I'll remember that cause I got to enjoy something with Jessie. Those are the moments that always keep me happy, even when the snowball is in effect.

I realize that my blogs jump everywhere, and I apologize for that. I admit, my head goes from one spot to another like a puppy meeting new people (bad way of describing it, but that's all I got.) But speaking of random/jumping everywhere,

I think I'm going to get a tattoo or two...or three. The amount is in the air. I am getting at least one. The question is, what to get? Here is a list of things I'm debating about:

~Green Lantern ring on my middle finger
~Captain America shield on my left forearm
~Sega logo on my left wrist (or Sonic, or Knuckles, or the Dreamcast logo)
~a Shamrock on my left shoulder (notice a theme here?)
Any other ideas are welcomed. Hell I've even thought about a tattoo of a bottle of hot sauce. Yeah, I'm willing to get food tattooed on me because if I'm going to be a chef, I have to show the dedication right?

So I'm starting to draw a blank now on what to write. I want to complain about my Chicago Cubs, but I can't. My head is use to them sucking (comes with being a Cubs fan.) Yet, I want to keep hoping that this year will be the year. Maybe once we get rid of Jim Hendry, we'll get on the right track. For now though, I leave you with the awesome sound of Foo Fighters' Everlong!