Join Me During The Sunrise, And The World Will Exist Around You

Good Evening Ladies and Gentleman,

I do apologize for the lack of updates. Dialysis has been well when there. But when home, I'm out like George Foreman against Muhammad Ali. And because I still feel blah, I'm going to post pix of food I've made. I hope you enjoy

Within And Without A Doubt

Good Evening Folks,

So here I am, blogging after resting a few hours from dialysis. Another successful treatment (came in at 69kilos (heh) even or 151.80lbs and came off at 68.3kilos or 150.26lbs) I felt okay till I got home which I then proceeded to pass the hell out. Like I said, after that nap, I feel a little better. I feel certain that they've now hit my dry weight because I was out of it, a little light headed, tired, and not feeling too wonderful. But what are you going to do right?

So allow me to rant about someone up there. I will not mention names, but aggravation has it's limits and mine are over flowing. You're on dialysis to get better. Plain and simple. Don't bitch and moan about gaining 4.3 kilos (or 9.46lbs) over the weekend and expect it all off within two hours. That shit DOES NOT FLY! You have to actually stay on for the full treatment in order for it to come off and to feel better. You CAN NOT get you're two hours because it will NOT all come off! Also, cursing at the nurses, calling them "honky" (thought funny) is just putting you in a bad spot. These are nurses you're cursing at! They're the people who stick you, control how long you go on, who have to report to your doctor! What the blue hell is wrong with you?! No one likes you consistent bitching and moaning! Just shut up, deal with the treatment like everyone else, and get over it. You're a grown person! You think the other people like having to control themselves and not eat and drink normally? They have to control not by choice, but as necessity. If they want treatments to go well, they have to watch what they intake liquid wise, salt wise, and pretty much everything in between. YOU ARE NOT AN EXCEPTION!

So, who's ready for March Madness!? I'm very excited and curious because to be honest, none of the #1 seeds really make much of a case. Yeah you have Ohio St. has the actual #1 seed, but their inside game really doesn't hold much ground. Duke is a heavy perimeter shooter that's hit or miss. Pitt is team that reminds me of Jon Fitch: Grinds and bangs you till you tire out. That's good, but what if they find a team that plays like GSP (Georges St. Pierre) fights? Even if it's for one night, you got to think overall? And of course you have Kansas...(fucking Kansas always screwed me over.) They're too insufficient and uneasy when it comes to tournament play. But that's what makes March Madness so much fun! You might have a Duke, or a Butler, or even that fabled George Mason run. It's fun to see who will catch lightning in a bottle (btw, I actually do have Ohio St. winning it all.)

So to close out the blog tonight, do send your best to the people of Japan. A 9.0 earthquake caused tsunamis and over 3,200 are dead, and over 7,000 people are missing. If you want too, donate to the Red Cross, or send a care package, or whatever will make you feel at ease if you help them. For this entries obligatory embedded by youtube, How about a score from Titanic. (Quiet! I actually enjoyed the score, but the movie was blah.)

Titanic Score: Hymn To The Sea

Be Happier Than Those Who Drag You Down

Good Evening Folks,

So I am updating! Another treatment done, and now down to 69.3 kilos (or 152.46lbs.) Felt very overtired after treatment, and had no idea what to do for the rest of this miserable rainy day. After a while, I ended up listening to music. What kind of music? Mumford and Sons, River City Extension, The Gaslight Anthem, Nada Surf, Jack Johnson, Heaven Shall Burn, and just a bunch of other artists. Which actually gives me an idea for a very small entry, but also a good one: I'm going to embed some youtube vids of some of my favorite songs right now. Short, sweet, awesome, and gives everyone something new to listen to!













And with that ladies and gents, I am off to dream upon the idea of things get better. Night

Situation Number 2

Good Morning Folks,

So obviously it's been a couple days since I've updated and I do apologize. Some days are hit and some are "Oh god I can't move from my bed." Recently have been the latter, but today is a good day. No idea why but for some reason I feel refreshed, feeling good, and feeling active. I've been up since 6:30 this morning, so I find it quite interesting.

I've been debating what to put for an update. I could put my recent dialysis treatments since they've gone well and my dry weight is apparently lower than usual (right now I'm at 69.4 kilos or 152.68lbs) So they might re-adjust that and get me lower. I could put an update of me and Jessie doing fantastic as always. Any time I talk about Jessie, she makes me smile, happy, blushing, and just all around feel better because FINALLY (emphasize on finally) someone wants to be with me and actually is honest with me, loves me for me, and isn't a cheater. Jessie is really my true love who seems to make everything better when things get pretty bad. I tend to joke a lot because that's how I was raised, but with her things seem to just naturally get better. I am so grateful for a woman like her. And with a that, I will update later ladies and gents, I am off to see my Jessie.

I'm Alive

Good Afternoon Folks,

So I haven't updated in a couple days. Why is that? Well yesterday I had dialysis and they didn't take much off (which was good since I came in at 71.0 kilos. Or 156.2lbs. I came off at 69.6 kilos, or 153.12lbs.) Not much if you think about it, but I must be close to my dry weight because I could not function at all after treatment. I couldn't even chow down on Taco Bell me and the girlfriend Jessie picked up later that night. What did I do instead? I passed out like a drunk frat boy from exhaustion, and couldn't fall asleep after that. Something involving where I had a hernia surgery years ago kept acting up, and I just couldn't get comfortable. I finally got to pass out at around 6 and didn't get up till about 10:30. Oh happy day for me.

So I'm home now. I've been at Jessie's the past couple days because it's a weekend and to be honest, nothing says awesome better than staying with your loved one and they make you feel better. So being home, what the hell should I do aside from update? Why post pictures of course! A short entry right now yes because I'm going to pass out, but I have pix up of when I went to the billiards hall that FINALLY opened up this Friday. Enjoy the pix and I will update sometime tomorrow (or hell if I feel better tonight.)

Simply In A Foggy State

Good Evening Folks,

So I had treatment today. To summarize: A decent day today in which my weight was brought down to 156lbs. Not a bad dry weight because I am not cramping, I feel good (or as good as once can feel after a dialysis treatment,) and I can still function. Now I know you're probably asking yourself, what the hell is a "dry weight?" A "dry weight" is your weight after 1) A treatment on dialysis. B) How the lowest weight doctors think you can get down too. With a good treatment today, I can actually update for those that read this.

Today was also good because UFC has a card on tonight: UFC Live on Versus 3: Diego Sanchez v Martin Kampmann. Should be a fun night watching people get wrecked on a network that once had a promotion called World Extreme Cagefighting (which had fighters from 155lbs to 125 lbs who the UFC absolved into.) So tonight is going to be a fun night for me at least. Now about pictures

Tomorrow night I will have some new photos of me. Saturday I WILL have pictures from dialysis because I feel I should get that done soon. It'll be good as a before/after. Which reminds me...

I just want to give an early shout out to STIX Billiards in Spotswood, NJ. It's run by Jesse Julian who I went to school with, and he's run a billiards hall before with great success. I wish him all the best and hope to god all the best to him.

And with that, I am off to "attempt" to watch the UFC card tonight (by attempt I mean not pass out from exhaustion) I close this blog with another song that I love, and yet again another Gaslight Anthem

Gaslight Anthem: Great Expectations

Losing Weight But Not Heart

Good Evening Folks,

So I haven't updated in a while. What have I been up too? In short; hospital visit because my body had become toxic (doctor's are still trying to figure out whether it was from my kidneys not filtering enough or a type to med called Prograf becoming a toxic bomb within my body) and had started causing my seizures. As you can imagined, that really sucked. I'm doing a lot better as you can imagined (hell I'm updating right now from the comfort of my own home,) but I'm on dialysis. Dialysis is of course, a treatment that is almost like an artificial kidney, which you get hooked up too three times a week for (in my case) four hours a week, at a DCI place in North Brunswick, NJ. A DCI (or dialysis center) is just what it is, a dialysis center where people go for treatment.

Does it suck? Yes it does I won't lie about it. Though it does make me feel better/normal, and I don't develop seizures, so that is a great plus. I do lose weight (or water weight/liquid weight) so my clothes fit better /joke. I really can't complain because let's face it ladies and gents, I don't have a choice. I need it to get better (til a transplant comes around,) and of course, I am going to look better. And I will get to the shallow part of this because I know it sounds "dickish," but it's the truth.

I keep saying that because of this treatment I will look better. I will post pictures of before dialysis and while on dialysis. You'll see a world difference within a couple treatments and of course, you'll see me looking better "literally and figuratively." I actually can't wait til I start putting pictures up. It'll be nice to show people my progression of the year and they can see how I'm changing (and whether or not I'll shave within a time frame. Yes that does include my hair because it's a little unruly right now.)

So with that ladies and gents, I am off to listen to music and talk to my wonderful girlfriend Jessie. I might get a little more personal tomorrow pending how treatment goes. For now though: I leave you with another wonderful youtube clip of a song that I love:

GASLIGHT ANTHEM: The '59 Sound